I THINK I NEED A NEW HEART
I've realized that I don't trust myself anymore. That sounds like either a large thing or a small thing, I guess. It depends on how important you think such things are. I think it's a huge thing, and needs to be remedied immediately. It also means, I think, that I need to work on something new. So, for your benefit and mine, I'm going to make a list of things that I'm going to do. Well, I may pick and choose a little, and I may ask for your help in some of these. But it's time. Also, if you ever read this and make fun of me for wanting to do any of these things, I will fuck you up. This is not up for critique.
Learn to ride a bike, sew my own clothing, grow out my hair, take yoga lessons, buy an electric guitar and write songs, begin my career as a jazz singer, learn how to make linoleum prints, write personal essays, go to more museums, sit in on a few jam sessions at the Crawford, go to California, take more pictures of my friends, write another zine, see more film, learn self-defense, go to a kareoke bar, save money, cook dinners, floss, meditate, write letters to people, try out improv, begin a novel, silkscreen t-shirts, move into a different apartment, travel to places I want to see: Toronto, Portland, Dallas, Vancouver; brush up my German, learn basic French, read all day, be quiet, be loud.
If you can help me with any of these, don't hesitate to sign up. Funding for the electric guitar, bike, or travel expenses may be forwarded directly to me.
I've realized that I don't trust myself anymore. That sounds like either a large thing or a small thing, I guess. It depends on how important you think such things are. I think it's a huge thing, and needs to be remedied immediately. It also means, I think, that I need to work on something new. So, for your benefit and mine, I'm going to make a list of things that I'm going to do. Well, I may pick and choose a little, and I may ask for your help in some of these. But it's time. Also, if you ever read this and make fun of me for wanting to do any of these things, I will fuck you up. This is not up for critique.
Learn to ride a bike, sew my own clothing, grow out my hair, take yoga lessons, buy an electric guitar and write songs, begin my career as a jazz singer, learn how to make linoleum prints, write personal essays, go to more museums, sit in on a few jam sessions at the Crawford, go to California, take more pictures of my friends, write another zine, see more film, learn self-defense, go to a kareoke bar, save money, cook dinners, floss, meditate, write letters to people, try out improv, begin a novel, silkscreen t-shirts, move into a different apartment, travel to places I want to see: Toronto, Portland, Dallas, Vancouver; brush up my German, learn basic French, read all day, be quiet, be loud.
If you can help me with any of these, don't hesitate to sign up. Funding for the electric guitar, bike, or travel expenses may be forwarded directly to me.
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